Hello humans ^^

In the past few days I have been busy drawing and learning about different methods of drawing. I learned about a new technique on YouTube that they called “Automatic Drawing”.
At first I thought it would be some kind of machine that draws for you, similar to a printer, but with a pencil or something. But then I took a closer look at it and was actually fascinated!

These artists didn’t follow any rules while drawing and had no specific goal in mind, they looked at it as a meditation for artists. A meditation that keeps the mind clear and preserves the joy in drawing.
When you draw automatically you keep motives, goals and expectations aside and just let the hand draw what comes naturally.

One might think that when you do that, nothing will happen but your hand might actually create some of the most interesting shapes. I personally think that while doing that you are creating things that are even closer to your own emotions and impressions than usually, you basically express things that come from the depths of yourself. It can just be hard to make out something that actually make sense. 🙂
There are no figures or objects that exist in reality, even if you might recognize some in there later.

Now! I have tried this drawing technique and just let my soul and my feelings draw which resulted in the following:

Feel free to write in the comments if you can recognize anything in there!
Or just try the technique yourselves, it’s really fun and good for relaxing. 🙂 ..It’s not about creating something that looks particularly good. x)

I wish you a great rest of your day!

Amy

P.S.: This is the link to the Video where I found this technique.
P.P.S.: Sorry for the bad image quality!

Hello. 🙂

Today is a nice day.
Maybe a little too warm but still nice.
I wanna do something nice and use the day for something productive.

Back in the day I would have used a day like this just like any other day for the same old things.
Well, I think I waited.
Waited for someone to get me to do something nice and stop me from letting a day like this pass by while doing nothing.
But why?
I could have just done it. Just like that.
Get up, go outside, at least go for a walk.
It sounded impossible.

But what was keeping me there?
You may call it „one’s weaker self“ or simply „laziness“.
But the actual reason was that I thought I needed someone else to make me happy.
Someone who makes me do the things that I actually want to do.

I couldn’t take responsibility for myself.

Sure, this is a developmental step that every person should take.
But now that I experience it myself it really gets me. 🙂

Now I want it, I am ready, even if I feel bad sometimes.
I want to make myself feel better and paint my life in the colors that I like best and not let it stay gray just because I am too lazy.

Sometimes it needs work to be happy, but it’s worth it!

Good luck
Amy

Once upon a time there was a little girl

Her eyes so big,
Her hands so small.

She ran through the forest,
Jumped from stone to stone.

Her friends were ghosts
From times past.

But they were not real,
How could that be?

She looked around
And was all alone.

Nobody was with her
And so she began to cry.

A little poem with the theme “The inner child”.
It also needs care, otherwise it will happen the same thing as happened to the little girl above and you won’t be happy yourself.

On my trip to Bavaria I learned a lot and now and then I buy my inner child some icecream and make sure that it’s not too scared.
The start of an independent life. 🙂
I don’t have to hope that anyone else cares – I can do it myself!

Something to think about 😛

(The poem rhymes in the german version)

Amy

Sometimes you think there’s no way out. You have already thought of all sorts of things, drawn the conclusions and it doesn’t change anything.
You only understand the solution when it’s told by someone you truly believe.
How should you help yourself when your own thoughts deceive you?

The light in the dark, it shines so bright
It hurts my eyes, but I don’t search for long
The way out of darkness, it’s open to me
What I guessed before, now it’s here.

But the light is everything I need
Now light is coming from within
Hope, vigour, they aren’t there yet
You bring them closer with every word you say

I thought I could defeat life
It wrecked me, brought me to the ground
What’s the point of thinking but not believing?
Light, light, it takes away my senses

But I didn’t see clearer before:
Even the lonely wolf is a pack animal.

– Amy

Hello human beings,

I am socially awkward.
I share my thoughts in a blog online instead of talking to people.
I don’t talk often anyway because I think I’m different and I wouldn’t expect anyone to deal with my peculiarities.
Of course I have mental problems.
Not least because I keep myself away from people. You do what’s necessary and then you go back to your corner, huh?
Seems like that’s what I’m doing.
Am I doing it like this?
I spend most of my life alone.
To at least pretend that I have social contacts, I use the internet.
There’s a lot of stuff here that pretends to be something it’s not. On many levels.
But in the end we are all lonely.
I’m sitting alone in my room pretending I’m not.

In most cases, the solution is exactly in the things you’re trying to avoid.

I’m going to meet some nice people over the weekend. ^^

And you?

Best regards
Amy

Good day,

I had a very funny dream lately. Although I can no longer remember the plot, I do remember I dreamed up a poem that made sense in the dream world but turned out to be complete nonsense after waking up.
I think it sounds interesting though, so i want to share it with you:

From far under dark fir
The Quundertahl is growing
And breaks the cone konderek
Fresh shining core kedekerek

Have fun interpreting.
Amy

P.S.: The time of everywhere widespread and extremely penetrating smell of perspiration has begun. 😛